Lord, please help me

Lord,
I know i said I would go through this all over again, and I meant it.. but I really wish I didn't have to. I need your strength and wisdom. Please speak to me.. help me, comfort me..

Lord, speak to his heart and mind and body and soul.. YELL to him.. speak louder than the voices of the drugs and addictions and self doubt and whatever other demons who are haunting to him.

Lord, help me to be who you want me to be.. to be the Heather that you have created me to be.. not just in this situation but in all of my world.

I can't do this without you.. I surrender.